So, it has been a looong time since I have put up a blog!!!!! But, recently on my vacation, I had quite a few thoughts pop up in my head while I was relaxing on the beach.... I always feel closest to God when I'm on the beach... I definitely felt him at certain times when I was caught up in the beauty and stillness of the beautiful ocean he created for us to enjoy.
One night, we were laying out on the chairs looking at the stars... with quite a few things on my mind, I was trying to rationalize and think through a lot of my feelings and thoughts...about life, love, and everything that weighs on a persons heart/mind. I sometimes wonder how often all the little things you do that you feel don't matter, like whats the point of going the extra mile for someone? Or whats the point in working all the time? Nobody initially really cares how hard you work at something.. or how hard you strive to please your boss or your clients... or family and partner... it goes unnoticed and unrecognized.
At that moment of my negativeness, along came a guy that worked at our Resort and he was putting the chairs back in place and he was raking the sand... he was making it nice and smooth for everyone for the next day. And instantly I felt God say to me "No job goes unnoticed by Me." It was like, even someone who is raking SAND on a beach... so humbly and at night that NO ONE would see... he was still doing it - and God saw it. He knew... he honors that. Its a job most people would not even consider... or know of. I had personally never thought that anyone raked sand... but, apparently so. Doesn't matter if I did or not, God did. It was such a humbling thought....it added to my tears that were already streaming down my face.
It made me think that no matter what job you do - whether its at your work, or if its loving your sister when its tough... or being selfless with your significant other - whatever it is that you are doing, God see's it... and nothing goes without Him noticing. We should all try to be aware of everything we do... God knows it all.
With that being said... I had another thought... I recently watched the movie "PS. I love you". Man, it gets me EVERYtime... I cry my eyes out. But on the same night I had the thought of "nothing goes unnoticed" (almost directly after)...... Just like "Gerry" takes care of Holly, so does God take care of us. Every setback we have, every thought we have that we aren't good enough... he always sends a msg somehow just like He did to me about how He honors everything, those msg's are his "PS. I love you"... I love you in spite of what you do or don't do... I love you even when you aren't loving me back in action or in word. I love you even when you are at your worst, at your best, and at your neutral times. Everything that happens that gets us through things, tough times.. situations... times when we feel alone or helpless .... negative or sad... he sends his letters in different ways - through people, through miracles, through an uplifting situation - even through a guy raking sand. Of all things, through a guy raking sand!!!!! I felt His love through that...
There are so many things that humble you and make you realize how important everything and everyone is. I am trying to think of different ways I can be a better Me. I want to step out of my comfort box and LIVE. I want to not be who I am and who I have been. I've let fear, anger, and selfishness control my attitude and my relationships with people and I can't... should no longer live that way. God is showing me how different I can be... how much better things can be. We all have a role to play in life, we all have people we need to love, not judge... we all have jobs to do that God has put us there for a reason - when we least expect it, we might be someones message to them from God. You just never know.
So, live... live in love and be humble. Never take for granted what might be God sending msg's to you... and never miss his PS. I love you.
