My thoughts lately have been all over the place. I just have been thinking a lot about life... our quality of life. Things we will accomplish.. or not accomplish. How far will we push ourselves? How far will we let ourselves go into not fulfilling our dreams. What do we let get in the way? What do we let remain?
Sometimes our biggest obstacle is ourselves. We stop ourselves from accomplishing our dreams.... our goals. Mostly because of fear and being comfortable.
I know for myself... there is so much I want to do. I lack motivation because I am scared of failing. I lack motivation because I don’t want to give myself so much that I can’t get it back and then get taken advantage of. Too many times that has happened...and I feel like I want to keep as much of me to myself and it comes across as selfish, rude, or just plain lazy. When in reality, I have no intention of being that way. I feel like I get complacent and just “ok” in life because of it.
I just keep wondering... what is it that we are all looking for...searching for...waiting for..aiming for? So many things come to my mind of what it could be. The perfect body, the perfect happy attitude... being loved and accepted by everyone. Obviously, we cannot please everyone... and if we try, we end up disappointing ourselves. So, why are we going to strive for that? This concept is probably what made me so worn out.... what made me come across as being selfish now because I gave away too much of me to please other people. And in the end.... I still ended up alone, unhappy, and taken advantage of and for what?
We shouldn’t let things, or other people dictate how we live...how we act.
Its so hard to let our emotions get in the way of like........everything. I see how many debates are started on Facebook... how many rumors are started by people.
I may seem like I am babbling on... rambling about random stuff... but, I just can’t help but wonder what life was like before all of this crap that we have that cause distractions and just too many ways to have the option to start so many arguments, hurting feelings, and what not.
What did we do before tv? Cell phones? Facebook? What would life be like without all of these things?
I can’t seem to stop feeling like our life has been overrun and filled with things that don’t matter.... and we do that to fill a void in ourselves.. going back to what I was talking about in the beginning. We are searching... and too many times we ignore what it is that we are searching for and fill it with things that are not even valid... that hold no real stock in our lives. It “suffices” for now. Filling your longing with things in the now... because the things we truly want we have to patiently wait on.... and sometimes... in the meantime... we lose ourselves...and forget our dreams.
Point is.... don’t avoid your souls longing. Don’t avoid chasing your dreams. Don’t let yourself hold YOU back from what you ultimately want. But most of all, don’t lose yourself. Don’t lose your YOU. Don’t lose what is most dear in this world and most important in this thing we call life. Keep your integrity, keep your head high, keep your heart open (but not abused)... keep your smile, and keep your moves going forward.
No race was ever won standing still. No test was ever achieved not picking up the pencil. No dream you ever had came true because you stopped dreaming. Keep dreaming... keep running... keep keepin' on.
