If Jesus could blog...

So.... at my bible study the other night, one of the girls (alicia!) made an interesting comment... she said "if Jesus could blog, I wonder what he would blog about?".  Wow. I wonder myself, too..... The more I read the bible and the more I think about my everyday life.... I often think about how much is left out of the Bible about my Jesus that I would so love to know.  So, if God could blog... what would it be?  Would it be something to do with hobbies?  Would he talk about the carpentry he was doing?  Would he talk about all the different variety of people that he met every single day?  Would he talk about his family or his many travels?  The Bible is a guide for us all.. but I wish it had more in it of the story and life of Jesus.. the smaller stuff.. the more everyday simple stuff.  I wish that he could blog to me every day <3 i wish I could have been a part of his everyday when he was walking the earth.  It makes me happy to know that Jesus was a normal person... he had normal everyday feelings and actions and was just like me; only an incredibly better version of me! ha :) he was Jesus after all....so that lead me to my next observation..........................

the other interesting thought that popped into my head also during bible study.  As I read my bible, and live my everyday life.. i'm not living up to the standards and expectations I have set for myself. So, I beg to ask the question: "how can I walk around in knowledge and not in action?"  How can I live the life I lead and not be my truest self?  If the Bekah at 10yrs old could see me now... what would she think?  Would I be proud of who I have become?  Or would I be ashamed?  I was watching a video of when I was the tender age of 15.  I looked so happy and so innocent.... that girl would never have guessed about the life that I would live between then and now.  So much heart ache, so much happiness, so much of the unknown.... most all of which I never would have guessed would have happened to me and in this world.
I need to really step in my life and put into practice what I read... put into practice my convictions and what I know if true.
I also know that when I put my mind to something I want, I get it... I do it.  I just keep thinking about how I want to be proud of who I am in 10yrs from now.  I want to be a healthier, smarter, more successful, more happier and content person in life and be able to know that I did everything I could to live up to my expectations and the commands that Jesus has set out for us.
I use to be so motivated to be the best and do the best... especially in being healthy.  I am the only person who is stopping me from doing what I want to do.. from reaching my goals and being the best of me I can be.

So, here's to not letting me stop me. :) and make a daily effort to get to know my Jesus more, and by doing that, that also means being a better me... healthier, happier, wiser, and more like my Father. Don't let you hold yourself back from following your dreams: make the YOU in 10yrs very proud of the YOU that you are right now.

Mumbo Jumbo Ramble

Its been a while since I have blogged... not much has happened.  I've had a few more revelations in life but nothing truly new and exciting going on in my life.  Just the same ole routine... work, work, work and maybe throw in a few good days with my boyfriend and family.. but not a whole lot of that going on either.  Everything has been thrown up in the air and I can't seem to catch all the important things before they fall and shatter on the ground.

I wish I could go on an extended vacation with no responsibilities and no obligations... just doing whatever I wanted to do and not feeling like I am at the mercy of others.  But, such is life in this crazy ole world.

I often find myself wondering if God really ever took some down time... did God ever say 'no' to someone?   Did he truly just constantly had himself on the go and didn't need vacations?  I mean, I know he is God of all but sometimes, everyone just needs to take a step back....I think God took his time to settle and was just in constant prayer... like that was his vacation...praying to his Father.  Is that wrong of me that my vacation is not my prayer time?  That when I do pray, my quiet time isn't necessarily something that I consider 'time away' from it all?  Should quiet times be like that?  Most of my praying time includes just asking for forgiveness and wishing that life wasn't so darn hard!
It kinda makes one feel selfish... after a while, God has to get tired of hearing the same ole thing... He just has to.  I get tired of hearing what I have to say after a while. One thing I wish I could actually say that I never tire of cuz I never say it: I just wish I could learn the phrase 'no' and stick to it.  I'm scared that I'm going to live my life doing things I do not want to be doing, and going places and to please people and not let anyone down.  In the end, I always end up letting myself down... which, I think by doing all of this, I end up causing my quiet times with God to be fewer and when I have them I am mostly complaining about other people when its actually my lack of time organizing and learning that two letter word "no"!  Not being able to say 'no' takes up so much free time that I could be spending with God or taking a walk or just having time for myself... working on me and not worrying about other people all of the time.
I'd like to think the only reason God made the tropics was because He planned them for us to vacation there!!!!  He knew we would need somewhere beautiful to go relax when we were finally about to get that down time.... He is the only one that could truly make a place so beautiful.... why should I deny my Jesus of visiting his masterpiece?!?!?!

Why the heck am I ramblin about this......I'm thinking its time to say NO and stop trying to please everyone and just go have a relaxing time with God... and my family who is Gods other gift to me, and enjoy what He has made for me and enjoy the precious quiet time for that much needed extra time away for myself. BAH!